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A li’l bit wisdom…in a tooth… Ouch….

Last few days have been horrible…twisting and turning at night…loss of appetite and lack of interest in talking to anyone…and attached irritations…

Its not a sad failure in love but a cavity in my wisdom tooth…the more I tried to ignore it…the harder it starts to pain..so finally I decided to get rid of the tooth..

Coincidence may be..just the day after I thought of removing it…the tooth started aching like hell…even hell would not stand in the way…probably its the way happiness is expressed in the toothy island..

so that’s it…met the surgeon today and I am now armed with Augmentin and Flexon…and scheduled for removal next week…

Sigh!!!…there goes whatever wisdom I had left in me….probably it got calcified 😛


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Just a note & something about Thought Detox

The last post was sad..ill timed and pathetically written…yay!!!…That’s my review…sounded like a geography note and a picture which looked nothing closer to the wonder town mentioned in the post…well…it was just to complete a writing urge…to write something…really something at all…and that is exactly what I felt at that point in time… 🙂 … It sure is freaking good to apologize and criticize your self out loud in the public..rather on a public forum…

I am not able to think of a topic to write and am just noting down what ever is coming to my mind as the fingers are prying on the keyboard..have an urge to write about the laptop but pushing it back…there is an aroma that is coming from the kitchen…wonder what my mother is putting together in her lab today…

I wonder whether I should delete this post…and there is a subconscious note which says that I should not…

hmmm…oh! darn…blank again…

Its probably linked to an idea which I had last night…to have a day of moun-vruta..Its all about being silent (Mouna) for a day…I think my SELF has taken it a bit to seriously considering that tooth ache which has been bothering me since few days now…well…back to the silence…we have a detox diet to clear our colon and the gut…wonder how that happens!!…will have to check with my wifey (not sue whether this line was actually needed here…hehehe)..is it actually possible to cleanse your thoughts by going in for a thought detoxification..something to cleanse our minds for fresher thoughts and brighter ideas…I am not sure how yoga would work..

Before Yoga

           –> Grocery shopping / work / thought 1 / thought 2

OFF FOR YOGA

          —> OMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM…….

After Yoga

          —> Thought 1 / thought 2 / Work / someone nagging…and so it goes…

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I don’t know …honestly I don’t know this will work but sure have to try it someday…a day of silence…a day away from everything and everyone…from all that I know…no phones…no mails…and above all and above everything…

ABSOLUTELY NO THOUGHTS

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F O R    O N E    F U L L    D A Y   ! ! !

Gee 😀

 


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Thuruthicadu…Pathanamthitta…Kerala…India :)

I was born in Thiruvalla..a place in Pathanamthitta district of Kerala..This state is at the southern most tip of India…and Pathanamthitta almost comes in the central zone of this state..well..My father was a civil engineer so had to move along..and we tagged along…me n my momma…we covered almost the entire country…and then It was decided that I better be at Kerala to complete my education…

A few places which are not known much…

Will start with a place called Thuruthicadu..this is again closer to Thiruvalla (Nearest railway station) and Cochin happens to be the nearest airport..almost 4 hours drive…

A land blessed with many temples…away from the hustle bustle and on the banks of river Manimala…

Manimala River at Thuruthicadu

Manimala River at Thuruthicadu

Will continue to post more details of this place…


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Dried eyes and Dead emotions!!

The struggle was ON..First it was his mother who was diagnosed with a deadly disease…she is a survivor…the treatment went on for an year..a devastated family and a diminishing fund..but they were limping back on..his job did take a hit..but things were not looking worse..life went on…and disaster struck again..it was his father this time…with a much serious case and needing urgent medical attention…and so the treatment started…all well…at least it looked so on the personal side…on the professional side, his work took a major hit and it sure was highlighted…An ailing family…A kid who was an year old…and the only support was his wife who was running around helping with the chores..late nights at the hospital leaving the little one and mother alone back at home…and things were just getting worse at the work place…

Spice is the flavor of life…I am sure those are not even closer to becoming sweet at times…but how can you feel up if there are no downs…

So..an organizational level change brought him to a new boss…a egoistic maniac…many in the team were old chaps and had known each other since ages…it took him a while to get accustomed to the folks around…also juggling the ongoing hurdles at home…then…what followed at work was a statement which wrecked his struggle and all the hopes…he was in a 3 month evaluation phase…post the phase its either an IN or an OUT…

Things started getting out of control…all alone…office…hospital..home…long chemotherapy sessions…fund gatherings…and a lost focus at work…his fathers health was deteriorating…he was slipping away…and his office thought that the time is right to improve his performance…so they added him to a performance improvement scheme…very well bound to go haywire…

His dad left for heavenly abode after much of a struggle…God bless the soul!!…

The struggle continued…all broken, lost and confused…when he got back the messenger of doom had this to say

“This was all decided..I wanted to tell you but unfortunately your father died!!!”

Needless to say…the 3 months went by…he did try but was not sufficient and failed…term over and as “mentioned” earlier during the “unfortunate” event which took place in his family…he had to quit…

The final lines of their meeting which took place to end the turmoil was…”So..How are you feeling now…”…frustrated and tired…the only thing in his mind and out on his lips were …”finally…its over…I can now go home and sleep”…and they “laughed”…

He was clueless and jobless for almost 3 months…moved houses to save on bills…had to cut down on many things…it was money which mattered most at that time…

and it clicked…

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New job…new city… but far from his family…the hollow ghosts of the cannibals were still haunting him…

Days, months and years went by…the struggle was now at both emotional and physical level…the pain of staying away from a kid who needs him the most and the travelling itself…

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God bless those fiery eyed demons…he can forgive the people in this mishap but can never forget them…The 3 asiatic kind and an American who spearheaded the showdown…

“Always ask for help..but don’t ask too much”

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The New Red!!

In line with the upcoming elections in India, Just couldn’t help writing a few lines on a new ideology I believe in..

 

Down with the hand that stops

Down with the flower once pink

We don’t need a cap to become kind

A leader who went with the wind

 

Bring to power, the people

Now tied up, but soon free

Vote for one, be as true as you

If none found, ignore the crew

 

Change the times my friend

Join the reds and make the trend

Its now new with you in mind

A revolution, of a very true kind

 

Rise and shine, oh! flag in red

Rinsed in anger and true blood

Wont shed my blood for their sin

Am a new comrade, out here to win

 

“Inquilaab Zindabaad”  (Victory to the Revolution)